feelingalive.

:) , happy...
for the first time in ages i feel happy !
and for no reson.
maybe its because they stopped arguing.
maybe its because i havent heard his name today.
maybe its because i just dont care anymore.
and to be honest at the moment i dont, all i care about is the feeling i have right now and how i want to savor it forever ! to feel like this is to feel everything. undepressed, unalone .
to feel.....loved?

is this love? , is what im feeling the major L word :/, am i scared? am i nervous?
i dont know.

honestly im completely blank, and its made me happy.
all i can think about are the good moments and times ive had.
forgettting about wats happened, and happening and remembering and thinking of the good.
i love it , ive missed it. feeling like this.
feeling as tho people care,
feeling as tho no harm can come to me,
feeling as though im on top of the world.
feeling as tho i am love.
i wonder how much longer it will last, and i am becoming scared of when it will be taken away from me. and i no it will.
i no this feeling of joy wont last forever , but i will hold onto it for as long as i can, and when i lose it i have no worry because it will soon be back :)